went to study with kaye today at 9 at kap. talked a whole lot of rubbish catching up with each other. yeah.. drowned ourselves with coffee for me and tea for her, drank abot 3 and a half cups.. i got really giddy and had a huge headache.. but it kinda went away for a while.. i guess it was quite productive.. i did a math paper and tried to do geog.. covered a chapter. then my headache came back.. i guess it was a caffeine overload. hah. drunk with caffeine. oh well.
i guess things have been pretty depressing of late huh. with the one week left to
gan gong and have all the fun we can before really settling down into the tiresome routine of school and gearing up for the big o's.. i guess we're all tired la.. sometimes its just good to take a break and think what we're doing.. why we're doing this. get our thinking straight. sometimes i guess we become impulsive. and end up losing everything we ever had.
i guess i'll just go back to being america eh.
policy of isolationism. back to my old routine. its time to get started on it. this time for real. then i'll be numb. numb from everything else. and then i concentrate on my work. and in no time it'll be time to go. how exciting. i cant wait. to leave everything and everyone behind. then maybe people will forget better. it'll be the best for everyone.
i guess.
later. 9:37pmi just read something disturbing. i guess i dont matter much to anyone anymore huh? not even my best friend.
i guess. things arent that okay after all.
even later 9:46pm
you know what i really wish. i wish there would be someone here now. to say everything's gonna be okay. to say that everything's fine. to give me a hug and a pat on the head.
but i guess i asked for it.
ha.
a shout of praise.
9:14 PM
